Greetings and clarification

First thing I want to say is “Hi Susan!”
The reason being is she called Sarah K (Best friend) asking her if I was okay, citing that I made this long Facebook post about how I was taking a step away from social media! She was concerned for me, hoping that I was okay, and expressed to Sarah that she had to pass this on. To answer her “yes, I am doing well! Feeling a little sad as the anniversary of losing my dad is coming up, but I am doing alright”

So moving forward to any readers know that this is my blog where I am going to share personal thoughts and feelings. But I want to explain why I am doing this, instead of just focusing solely on books. I love talking to people, and when asked I am an open book. Just this past weekend Nick and I went out for coffee and we ran into their choreographer and she asked me for my life story. So I dove into about a 20 minute ted talk on what it means to be Trevor D. Stone, hitting the highlights from the previous years. However, I am not the type of person to reach out to a friend when I am feeling sad or down, as I normally sit in my feelings and work it out by myself. As I was told by a very good friend last year (Victoria, shout out to calling me out in the best way possible I love you), I can’t do that. That is not what a true friendship is, I can’t always let me friends talk to me, sharing their worries, hopes, and such, and then not return the same mentality. In my own mind I wasn’t doing that, they did not ask or I just did not want to unload all I was feeling when they already had a full plate. Hell, my fiancé told me that so many different times. So as a result back in November I had this brain blast, why not share my thoughts in a blog format. I still wanted to talk about books but I wanted to carve a space where I can say how I was feeling in a way that did not feel invasive. Now if a friend wants to know what is going on they can click into The Last Page Tavern and they will get a weekly (hopefully) review of how I am doing and what has been going on in my life.

But I’ll be honest… I started writing this post back on January 15th and then life happened and it took a long time for my to get back to writing. But in an effort to be kind to myself I want to say ” That is okay, Trevor. It takes time.”

Two different Anniversaries

January 20th and January 26th are now two big days in the history of Trevor D. Stone. The 20th is the anniversary of Nick and I officially becoming a couple. We celebrated 3 years of being together and its still wild to me that its only been three years. It feels like I have lived a life time with Nick, filled with ups and downs. However its only been 3 years since I found the missing piece to my heart and I am still as happy as I was that first day. I look back at the past 3 years and I get flooded with various memories, but the one thing that stands out above the rest is I hear Nick laughing with their warm smile and love in their eyes. I see that and my heart sets aflame with love and joy and whatever clouds I feel start to go away.

Now the 26th is the opposite of the 20th, and it marks the day where I lost one of my loves, my Father. and it was the first anniversary. The big one that everyone dreads and despairs. I made a post of Facebook in honor of my dad but to go a little deeper, I just can not believe that it has been 365 days without him. I used to call my dad at least once a week and we would just catch up about whatever is going on. I’d tell him the happenings of work, any drama or annoyances, and I would tell him about the show I was in, telling him how I felt about my performance, and then I would tell him anything and everything else that is going on in my life. He would sit there and listen, clearly playing one of his computer games, and would ask question and just be there for me. Once I was done he would start talking about something, it could have been a meal that he made, telling me every ingredient that he put in it, or about the garden if it was summer, or just tell me about a movie or book or just something just so he could talk to me. Let me tell you reader, I miss those phone calls. Out of everything that I have missed in the past year I think those are the thing that I miss most. (sorry I had to stop writing for a second cause I started to cry)

So yeah this is a hard week for me moving forward because it starts on a high, remembering love of my fiancé, and ends low, remembering the love of my dad.

Texas

I went to Texas. For work.

I was in Dallas and I got to go to a Meow Wolf exhibit and it was WILD. If you do not know what Meow Wolf is, you have to Google it but basically its an art collective that is just bright colors, weird characters, and odd concepts. Nick and I stumbled upon Meow Wolf in a VR golfing game that we like to play, with Meow Wolf creating a level. From there I saw similar art on TikTok when I saw a review for Omega Mart, an installment in Las Vegas. So when I was told I was going to Texas I quickly looked to see if there was a Meow Wolf in the area and I was not disappointed. Having now went to the exhibit, I do not know how to review my experience. Since I was alone I felt uncomfortable doing the story and taking the space from other people, so I just spend almost 2 hours walking around looking at everything. Getting lost in the countless hallways and had such a fun time.

Sickness

Don’t get sick. Coming back from Texas I picked up some sort of virus. Most thinking it was the Flu and it was horrible. I had every symptom and I was down for the count.

Reading Update

So like I said I deleted social media from my phone because I was addicted to scrolling endlessly on the apps. So because of not having those apps on my phone I have found myself with more free time, as I am not sinking it into those apps. So I have dedicated myself back to reading for fun on top of the book club and book reviews. I find that if I only read for “assignments” then I am not actually partaking in my hobby and I will burn out.

So with the month over I would like to dive into my reading and share with you the month.

In the month I read 3931 pages over 9 books! As you can see the Dungeon Crawler Carl series has been what I have been obsessed with and trust me I will be talking about it eventually. I just want to finish the more recent book and I will take some time to try persuade you to read it.

So overall I read roughly read 126.8 pages a day, which if I read a little fast that a minute a page, lets say 50 seconds, I spent just under 2 hours reading every day. So I have saved two hours by cutting out social media and have been able to invest that time into something I enjoy. Win!

Now, I just like seeing these numbers, they don’t really mean anything, except that I must be liking the books I am reading.

Book	Author	Started	Finished	Rating
Dungeon Crawler Carl	Matt Dinniman	01/01/25	01/05/25	8
The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue	V.E. Schwab	01/05/25	1/24/2025	10
Carl’s Doomday Scenario	Matt Dinniman	01/06/25	1/9/2025	9
The Dungeon Anarchist’s Cookbook	Matt Dinniman	01/09/2025	1/14/2025	7
The Gate of the Feral Gods	Matt Dinniman	1/14/25	1/20/2025	8
The Butcher’s Masquerade	Matt Dinniman	1/20/2025	01/28/2025	9
Oynx Storm	Rebecca Yarros	1/21/2025	1/24/2025	*

These are the books I read and finished in January! Onyx Storm is not rated because I learned about the insensitive thoughts of the author and that’s all I will say.

I am looking forward to what the next few weeks will bring in this month but I will keep my lips sealed 🙂

Bye for Now

Thanks for stopping and reading my thoughts and ramblings. Once I have fully kicked this remaining congestion I will be back stronger and more chaotic.